Joining in with Five Minute Friday: on a Monday. This week’s word:
I find I’m noticing more. I’ve always been an observant person, so now I feel like I’m spidey-Man. I see so much more because I’m observing, now, with heightened emotions, which makes me notice more, much more. Nuances I didn’t realise existed. Peculiarities I hadn’t noticed. Colours, textures, shapes I never saw before. I feel like I’ve been gifted a new chance at life. And my brain appears to have gone in to sensory overload, trying to make the most of every second, whilst my heart and head try to wring the most meaning – purpose – out of every second, every interaction. I lost so much life, I now feel I’ve got to make up for it. I’m on a mindful chase through the world, eking beauty out of it, sucking it all up, ingesting everything greedily, so hungry I am for beauty. I feel myself so much more sensitive, so much more aware. It’s beautiful, this process, this awakening. I have to remind myself to enjoy it, to enjoy the process as much as the view and the results. For I’m becoming me again. I’m learning who I am all over again. I’m emerging, afresh, to start my life over. This sack full of trauma I carry around, I can feel it getting lighter and lighter every day, as I process each incident. I take my traumas, one by one, out of my sack, and I examine them each – and all – in this different light, this different perspective. I discard them after this examination, chalking them, then, up to experience. Experience, that sage old wisdom I’ve come to love: it’s allowing me to move on stronger, more aware. More alive. More ready for everything life has to throw at me. Walking towards my future with arms open wide, ready to greet the beauty I see there.