After many hours of soul searching….
…it seems I have…
“…an intense and irresistible desire for freedom”…
It’s an acute case. Has been keeping me awake at night. Stopping me living fully. Stopping me being all I am, all I can be. Keeping me less when what I want is to be more, so much more.
The only possible cure, I’ve decided, is to unshackle myself from old patterns of behaviour and ways of thinking. To ‘Shake it Up! Shake it Up!’ as Taylor Swift sings (in my mind)….
“Release the real Helen” (I can hear myself shouting, my soul fainting, giddy at the mere thought of what’s to come!)….
I can’t wait for you to arrive, 2015…
…and, more’s to the point, I can’t wait to see the end of 2014, my annus horribilis….
For those of you who’ve been kind – so kind – to take the time to ask where I’ve been (which was, is, so much appreciated xxx) – I’m fine! Just been taking a break…spending some quality time with my littles…bouncing on trampolines at 2am (and being told off by security guards – don’t ask! Although I will say that I think I earned enough ‘Cool Mama’ points to see me through to, oh, about June time!)….searching for a suitable ‘woman on a swing’ image in Google (oh my goodness….who knew (or even suspected!) that there’d be so many kinky ‘woman on a swing’ images to battle through to find one image I could use for this post???!!!)…..eating far too much……(yuck, double yuck)…..writing mammoth draft blog posts (mammoth quantities – there’s something about rest that makes my brain fire on all fronts!)…..planting seeds…..playing dolls and PES2015 (who knew it was so cool?! and that the players look so much like their real counterparts?! Freaky!)…..bike riding…baking….tidying….decluttering…bird watching (weaver birds building their nest – that’s a lesson in humility if ever I needed one!)….writing my “new life manifesto”….(oh yeah, baby…!)….basically doing a million (and one) offline things that’ve kept me occupied…..
…but I’m missing you guys and am raring to get back in the saddle (as it were), with my writing muscles chomping at the bit (how many mixed metaphors there??!!)…..
I’ll be back with a vengeance in the next few days…with my ‘2015 Word’ post…
Have a wonderful, wonderful New Years Eve/New Years Day and I’ll see you all soon xxxx
P.S. Do you think I can manage to recreate a winged eyeliner look? And should I sport one in bright blue (Oh, Sophie Dahl, how I love thee)? [These are important questions on New Years Eve’s Eve, darlings! Given, however, that the tutorial involves scotch tape to be placed near my eye lashes, I’m thinking I better give it a miss….(even if we are planning on spending New Years Eve watching The Spiderwick Chronicles – excitement all round! – my date with a glass of champagne, a box of chocolates and The Great Gatsby shortly afterwards requires I make some sort of an effort!!!!]